♫ It is to You ♫ – Byron Cage

For some reason this song ALWAYS brings tears to my eyes…. to say it reaches me is an understatement.

It is to you i give the glory
It is to you i give the praise
For you have done so much for me
And i will bless your holy name
It is to you holy father no one like you
And i will bless your name
Bless your name
Bless your name forevermore

It is to you i give the glory
It is to you i give the praise
For you have done so much for me
And i will bless your holy name
It is to you holy father no one like you
And i will bless your name
Bless your name
And i will bless your name forevermore

It is to you i give the glory
It is to you i give the praise
Lord you have done so much for me
And i will bless your holy name

It is to you holy father no one like you
And i will bless your name
Bless your name
And i will bless your name
Bless your name
And i will bless your name
Bless your name
And i will bless your name
Bless your name
Bless your name
Bless your name
Bless your name forevermore

Resposibility

How responsible are you for someone else.

If you know carrying out a particular course of action is bad for them, is it incumbent on you to stop?
What if they know its bad for them and they don’t want you to stop, what then?

Stressed!

For the pass 2 days i have been telling people that i need a vacation and they have immediatly got the wrong impression.

Where as I do feel quite overwhelmed and stressed at times….. I am not constantly in that state. I am quite OK….

My desire to go on vacation (which really means 2-3 days resting) is to improve my production levels… I am beginning to realize i am approaching my burnout point… where i have difficulty focusing and a desire to take the day off too frequently.

And yet even as i type this I feel that Its a waste of time…. My production levels are falling because i am tired of my current project…. the moment it is over is when i can relax…. taking a vacation while it is still outstanding is a waste of time…. in fact when this project is over I know i wont need to take 2-3 days… work is a relaxing enough place for me…. It is actually almost a place of refuge…. a place dedicated to getting stuff done…. I like it here.

So here’s to my “vacation”, that week after my project is done where i can leasurely work on all the other little projects that i have been itching to get cracking on……
To stop “working” (on things i enjoy) really does more harm than help :-/

Can i tell you though, retirement scares the CRAP out of me.

OH, for the record,  I am not a work-a-holic… I am quite lazy. I work only when i feel like on things that i want to work on…… A real Work-a-holic works for the sake of working…. not I.

Lessons learned while at the gym.

Lesson 1.
Pride commeth before a muscle strain.

Basicaly I am Saying…. BUSY!

This morning while listening to the latest CD I created for driving (best of 09…. HYPE!) I realize that every time i put dance-hall on a CD, Busy Signal ends up having the majority of the tracks…..
It made me realize that, at least in my own mind, I have been seriously underrating this exceptional artist. His latest Song “blame Life” Is Deeply Profound and Just a Boom tune. Trust Me when i say as much as he can get Crass and Violent with the best of them, i am hard pressed to see any other (non dread) artist with as many GREAT Conscious tunes.

Many have heard me say that Vybze Cartel is one of the greatest Lyrical Geniuses that Jamaica has ever produced… and where as he is clever and truly “interesting” to listen to…. I beginning to think … scratch that… I do think that Busy Signal is a better artist.

In light of this I have decided to add Busy signal to the exclusive list of artists i will buy music from……
Here is sample of the list:

Queen Ifrika (NEW)

Busy Signal (NEW)

Etana

Tanya Stevens

TOK

Reminded

Today i was reminded why i have chosen not to get married.

Yesterday

Yesterday i spent time with my god Daughter (YE I KNOW, CRAZY!)

And in spite of her screaming in terror at the sight of me i have decided what i want our interactions to center around….

And after that, however,  it ALMOST had me thinking i wanted a child too… but I’ve been down this road before so NOOOOOOOO!

In any case, I know i cant teach anybody anything (as the members of my section can attest to) so I don’t think i will try showing her words or things of the sort…. No, I have decided that We will listen to music… so from now on every time i go there I want to have something different and interesting (AND WHOLESOME) for her to listen to…. and then we can discuss the merits of the various musical pieces…  Well thats just my plan now… we’ll see what actually happens.

can i tell you she is adorable… Here is a catalog of the various expressions she had for me:

* AAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! Scary MAN!
*Why is no one else running from the scary man?
*Why wont the scary man go away, I am not gonna shake his hand… maybe if i look away… drat! now he has taken to poking me… what have done to deserve this torment

* Ok OK! i will sit in in scary man’s lap, will you shut up about how this “uncle Mark” is great
*What? He has BBerry!? YAY!… now if only he would leave me alone with it… hehehe
*HE GAVE ME THE BERRY! … have to look disinterested while trying to figure out how to pull it apart
*HA found a week spot… hmm this requires effort… they build these good
*What! why did he take it away….hmmmm… ok if i stay in his lap and look adorable maybe hell give me back
*What? another phone? how many phones does the scary man need….. he only has 2 ears
*WO music
*OMG! he thinks he can dance … I am dying with laughter inside….. Silly scary man
* OK scary man not so bad… he’s really silly though

There you have it a summary of my day with my god Daughter… I am convinced i am and will always be the scary man to her… I don’t know why i think i am quite charming…  In any case think she enjoys my ridiculous attempts to dance and she seemed to like certain songs… so i think the future looks good for a musical adventure. Next up Classical and Jazz

BTW! I am teaching her the concept of the term “Big Tune”. It is a phrase that has been belittled but really is a personal stamp of approval given by an individual to verify the quality and musical palatableness of a particular harmonized acoustic. So if you ever hear her shouting out BIG TUNE then you know its the positive influence of “the scary man”.

(hehehe I can imagine her doing that at church LOLOLOL  and then telling her mother and pastor:
“that was my personal stamp of approval verifying the quality and musical palatableness of that particular harmonized acoustic” … I need to teach her to say that as well …. shhhhh dont tell her mother )

The truth as i see it: Why?

I just watched 2 women fighting over a man on facebook… and my first thought is “why aren’t both of them doing this to him?”

Why is it that the guy comes out the unscathed 9 times out of 10 when 9 times out of 10  he is the reason there is a problem?

Today i saw i clip from pink panther the movie where the inspector pointed out that the woman he loved did not know how beautiful she was and he could not tell her this simply because if she knew then she would pick someone else.

Is it a case where some women just do not know their true value?

The thing is, knowing one’s true value does not mean you will get what you want… but it sure does not mean you need to take anything that comes along…….

For a long time I have thought that if I had a child I wanted a daughter… and i thought the most important thing to teach her was that every action has a reaction… but now i am beginning  think the most important thing to teach her is to understand her own self worth… but how do you teach a human being this?

what women want?

Women want a man who needs them but isn’t needy – unknown

Profound

This is quote i saw My cousin with:

A woman’s heart must be so hidden in God that a man has to seek God to find her.