Yesterday

Yesterday i spent time with my god Daughter (YE I KNOW, CRAZY!)

And in spite of her screaming in terror at the sight of me i have decided what i want our interactions to center around….

And after that, however,  it ALMOST had me thinking i wanted a child too… but I’ve been down this road before so NOOOOOOOO!

In any case, I know i cant teach anybody anything (as the members of my section can attest to) so I don’t think i will try showing her words or things of the sort…. No, I have decided that We will listen to music… so from now on every time i go there I want to have something different and interesting (AND WHOLESOME) for her to listen to…. and then we can discuss the merits of the various musical pieces…  Well thats just my plan now… we’ll see what actually happens.

can i tell you she is adorable… Here is a catalog of the various expressions she had for me:

* AAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! Scary MAN!
*Why is no one else running from the scary man?
*Why wont the scary man go away, I am not gonna shake his hand… maybe if i look away… drat! now he has taken to poking me… what have done to deserve this torment

* Ok OK! i will sit in in scary man’s lap, will you shut up about how this “uncle Mark” is great
*What? He has BBerry!? YAY!… now if only he would leave me alone with it… hehehe
*HE GAVE ME THE BERRY! … have to look disinterested while trying to figure out how to pull it apart
*HA found a week spot… hmm this requires effort… they build these good
*What! why did he take it away….hmmmm… ok if i stay in his lap and look adorable maybe hell give me back
*What? another phone? how many phones does the scary man need….. he only has 2 ears
*WO music
*OMG! he thinks he can dance … I am dying with laughter inside….. Silly scary man
* OK scary man not so bad… he’s really silly though

There you have it a summary of my day with my god Daughter… I am convinced i am and will always be the scary man to her… I don’t know why i think i am quite charming…  In any case think she enjoys my ridiculous attempts to dance and she seemed to like certain songs… so i think the future looks good for a musical adventure. Next up Classical and Jazz

BTW! I am teaching her the concept of the term “Big Tune”. It is a phrase that has been belittled but really is a personal stamp of approval given by an individual to verify the quality and musical palatableness of a particular harmonized acoustic. So if you ever hear her shouting out BIG TUNE then you know its the positive influence of “the scary man”.

(hehehe I can imagine her doing that at church LOLOLOL  and then telling her mother and pastor:
“that was my personal stamp of approval verifying the quality and musical palatableness of that particular harmonized acoustic” … I need to teach her to say that as well …. shhhhh dont tell her mother )

Worship, Gym, Home

Worship
My spiritual life has been neglected for some time now….in spite of this, I have been constantly reminded of the concept of worship being a lifestyle over the past few months. It means me changing a number of things in my life…. but i somehow think it is possible… just for me to decide to start…..

Here’s to a better lifestyle

But what does living a lifestyle that worships God mean….. to be honest the full understanding of this has yet to be revealed to me but i don’t think I am ready for that…. one step at a time… set a goal, achieve it, then move on to the next one……
The blatant deficiencies that i know are in my life can be dealt with….. from there we can see what else needs to worked on.

GYM
Oddly what has motivated me to take this other look on my life is a combination of My trip home and the gym…..
To be honest my going to the gym now has me feeling like anything is possible….

’stop worrying about failing and just do it’.

That phrase is so simple and yet means so much to me. It is, i guess, the Big lesson coming out of 2008 … didn’t realize how much fear of failure held me back in everything i did……. I am not saying i am cured… it is still easier not to…. but for some reason i feel like a world of limitless possibilities has opened to me….

Here’s to new possibilities and maybe even new beginnings.

DISCLAIMER: these are not resolutions or my “mission statement 09″…. this just where i am now…. it just so happens that all these things started between nov. and now

HOME

I love my family… In my household quoting of scripture is standard… either in regular conversation, or running jokes,or in arguments (not really) or just random utterances…. U cannot stay long in my house and not hear scripture being quoted….
As a result while i was there i felt like i had lost my way…. i never was a walking bible… but i used to know enough to hold a a good discourse with my father… even if i could not remember the exact verse i quoting from. I miss those days…. and it was wonderful to be home and just hearing all this…
On the morning i was leaving My father asked us all to Quote our fav. scripture… and While EVERYONE… (including my 8 year old cousin) could quote word for word.. I was the only one to have an entire book of the bible as my fav… and i could not Quote 1 verse… needless to say I am gonna fix this… so Ecclesiastes Here i come…..
Off course My bother and my sister are the 2 COOLEST ppl i know HANDS down (dont tell them i said this) Sara’s whit  is unparalleled and Phillip’s way of thinking WAY outside the box is nothing short of AWESOME. Needless to say My brother was able to find the most radical verse in the bible to be his fav. Cant remember what it says exactly but essentially it says “Fend For Yourself”

DWL!

Only Phillip, Of course the look on my fathers face was priceless…. He had to just smile and shake his head… I think he is proud of his kids… and i would not be surprised if once in a while he pats himself (and Mom) on the back and says “Not too bad”

Yep I love my family.

Talks

Had a talk with my father this morning in which i outlined my decision re having a family. And his initial reaction mimicked most o my other friends…. but then he stopped.

Its one of the things i love about my parents… their ability to respect my decisions… mind you if they don’t like it they will pray about it… but at the end of the day, they love and support me still.

Yep i i think i love my peeps

How well they know us

Just had a talk with my mother that reminded me she knows her children better than almost anyone else on this planet……….
And yet I will never ask them (ie. either of my parents) what they think of me…………