Yesterday

Yesterday i spent time with my god Daughter (YE I KNOW, CRAZY!)

And in spite of her screaming in terror at the sight of me i have decided what i want our interactions to center around….

And after that, however,  it ALMOST had me thinking i wanted a child too… but I’ve been down this road before so NOOOOOOOO!

In any case, I know i cant teach anybody anything (as the members of my section can attest to) so I don’t think i will try showing her words or things of the sort…. No, I have decided that We will listen to music… so from now on every time i go there I want to have something different and interesting (AND WHOLESOME) for her to listen to…. and then we can discuss the merits of the various musical pieces…  Well thats just my plan now… we’ll see what actually happens.

can i tell you she is adorable… Here is a catalog of the various expressions she had for me:

* AAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! Scary MAN!
*Why is no one else running from the scary man?
*Why wont the scary man go away, I am not gonna shake his hand… maybe if i look away… drat! now he has taken to poking me… what have done to deserve this torment

* Ok OK! i will sit in in scary man’s lap, will you shut up about how this “uncle Mark” is great
*What? He has BBerry!? YAY!… now if only he would leave me alone with it… hehehe
*HE GAVE ME THE BERRY! … have to look disinterested while trying to figure out how to pull it apart
*HA found a week spot… hmm this requires effort… they build these good
*What! why did he take it away….hmmmm… ok if i stay in his lap and look adorable maybe hell give me back
*What? another phone? how many phones does the scary man need….. he only has 2 ears
*WO music
*OMG! he thinks he can dance … I am dying with laughter inside….. Silly scary man
* OK scary man not so bad… he’s really silly though

There you have it a summary of my day with my god Daughter… I am convinced i am and will always be the scary man to her… I don’t know why i think i am quite charming…  In any case think she enjoys my ridiculous attempts to dance and she seemed to like certain songs… so i think the future looks good for a musical adventure. Next up Classical and Jazz

BTW! I am teaching her the concept of the term “Big Tune”. It is a phrase that has been belittled but really is a personal stamp of approval given by an individual to verify the quality and musical palatableness of a particular harmonized acoustic. So if you ever hear her shouting out BIG TUNE then you know its the positive influence of “the scary man”.

(hehehe I can imagine her doing that at church LOLOLOL  and then telling her mother and pastor:
“that was my personal stamp of approval verifying the quality and musical palatableness of that particular harmonized acoustic” … I need to teach her to say that as well …. shhhhh dont tell her mother )

The truth as i see it: Why?

I just watched 2 women fighting over a man on facebook… and my first thought is “why aren’t both of them doing this to him?”

Why is it that the guy comes out the unscathed 9 times out of 10 when 9 times out of 10  he is the reason there is a problem?

Today i saw i clip from pink panther the movie where the inspector pointed out that the woman he loved did not know how beautiful she was and he could not tell her this simply because if she knew then she would pick someone else.

Is it a case where some women just do not know their true value?

The thing is, knowing one’s true value does not mean you will get what you want… but it sure does not mean you need to take anything that comes along…….

For a long time I have thought that if I had a child I wanted a daughter… and i thought the most important thing to teach her was that every action has a reaction… but now i am beginning  think the most important thing to teach her is to understand her own self worth… but how do you teach a human being this?

what women want?

Women want a man who needs them but isn’t needy – unknown

Profound

This is quote i saw My cousin with:

A woman’s heart must be so hidden in God that a man has to seek God to find her.

An intersting Quote

Love is the answer, but while you’re waiting for the answer sex raises some pretty good questions. – Woody Allen

Run Away!

I want to escape!
To get away and seek out my place of refuge.

I am now here…. as is the same feeling…… liquor needed?

For lack of Vision…

I have never wanted to be captain of  the band (panoridim) for the simple reason that i do not have a vision.
At no point have i ever had a clear idea of what it is i want the band to accomplish in a given year.

This also applies to any leadership position i may be offered or have the opportunity to pursue.  In the context of the band, I have chaired one or two committees, but these have been directly in areas i have a passion for and that I have fairly Good Idea of what i want. What happens when i end up in a leadership position in something i have no vision for?

This morning the answer came to me… READ.

In a situation where the source of innovation cannot come from within, let it come from without. Watch what others are doing, learn from it, see how you can improve upon it and do it.
To me, however, this feels like cheating. I Will admit I am the guy who will re-invent the wheel just because he wants to truly say it came from him (sue me) .  Even so, let us hope I can apply this new way of thinking and use it to my advantage.