the tunnel

Ok so where is my life at at this point in time

• Pan concert coming up
• On multiple projects at work with back to back deadlines
• Personal Life a semi confused mess of ticking time bombs

And yet I am smiling. Outside of things going on in my personal life…. I feel (still) a sense of excitement. A pause before the plunge into the deep unknown… and eager, almost childish excitement as i delve head first in the challenges i have embraced.

And yet……. in spite of this I can Guarantee that as I approach the end of March, My mood will turn sour and I will be cursing in almost every other post……..

Funny how. in spite of the fact that i know the direction things will go in general…. I take these things on because… I know what victory tastes like…. I know how good it feels to come out on the other side of the tunnel…. and believe when i say it feels good…very good….

So maybe i am a junkie, a masochist… but as I face the start of this tunnel with a childish giddiness and stupid grin on my face… knowing full well that it will get very dark in there… i will not flinch.. nor shy away simply because I have been to the other side… and it is good there.

that thing……… it……… Jagged Little piece(s)………

Interesting how we try to live our lives in search of ‘that thing’…..
Most of us have no idea what ‘that thing’ is…….

What we hope for…is that this… ‘thing’ will spark some chemical reaction in our brain
some trigger in our soul/spirit that…….
will make… everything worthwhile…
that will make…… sense out everything….
that will make all the pieces that have made up our life so far….. fit

And in our Pursuit of this….. ‘thing’
We come across others… who are also in pursuit of….. their…’thing’
And at times we find ‘it’ in each other
Other times we help each other find ‘it’…….
and often enough this person adds a piece… a broken and jagged piece…… that hurts when you swallow
Worse than that though…. at least in my view… is when we are the ones that add that jagged little peice

Yet jagged pieces are inevitable and essential….
a puzzle needs all its parts… no matter how painful……
Its just that…. some times you wish…. our puzzles never had these jagged little pieces….

To be honest with you… I find they suck in general….
whether you doing the adding Or you are the one being added to.

Ok, so i have lost the train of thought that started me writing what was written above….. but i think I ‘ll post in any way …… Its just that I believe that every jagged little piece serves a purpose… and I try to make it my duty to try to see where it fits…. because ….. well because I would like to think that something like that serves some purpose… that it is working to some greater good… and in some way helps to develop who we are… making us better (not Bitter) individuals……

The Evil Within

Ladies and Gentlemen, people of the Blogosphere, as I am writing this I a casting cautious glances about my cubicle, Praying that this gets out before it is to late…
I have have recently Uncovered a Uniquely Insidious and Diabolical plot being carried on JPS staff by the leaders of the company…
Since my move to the head office I have noticed how cold it is… I also noticed a Nescaffe vending Machine… In my naivety I had thought that this was a grand Gesture By the company for those who Need Caffein to function (like myself) the longer I spent here, the more I realized that what I thought was a beneficent act by my employers was really a nefarious attempt to lower ower salaries… and it works.

Think about it; if you drop the room temperature of a building to near 0 deg. cel. (the freezing point of water) then, automatically, ppl will seek the nearest source of warmth………. preferably, a warm beverage <insert dramatic music here>

Do you begin to see the levels of Depravity that is required to so callously play upon the human frailties of ppl who slave away on their behalf? I do……

If this is the last message I send from Facebook, do not look for me, for they are too powerful (pun intended). Nay my brethren… I charge you instead to spread the word… let every nook and Granny (yes I spelled that how i wanted it ) within this nation know of this most Heinous of deeds, Until there is a quiet yet overwhelming Rumble that shall Shake this iniquitous force at its Foundations! Yes My People! Spread the word so that one day we can all join in that uniquely powerful and Infamous refrain;

“FREE AT LAST, FREE AT LAST, THANK GOD ALMIGHTY, I AM FREE AT LAST”

Quotes

“I am not Naive but whether or not I am stupid has yet to be seen” – Anonymous

“Your either incredibly smart or incredibly stupid”  – Brill