Unwell

Of late, when I find Myself wallowing in Self Pity, usually as a result of the situations I have created for myself, I find that the song that cheers me the most is Unwell by Matchbox 20:

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I’m feeling like I’m headed for a
Breakdown
I don’t know why
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know, right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know, right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they’ve all been talking ’bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I’ve lost my mind
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know, right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they’ll come to get me
Yeah, they’re taking me away
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know, right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me
I’m not crazy I’m just a little impaired

I know, right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I’m just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be

Sigh!

Boy this same theme is Coming Over and Over again….. when it end? I have allready written 5 blogs on the same Topic….. Sigh

Lawx… I am Not perfect…. in fact I am VERY imperfect VERY VERY VERY imperfect ……

Never before have seen Such a concerted effort by the Fates to scare me away from interacting with the Opposite sex ……. lol

OK I get it!

Beginning to feel Like the a young Hubris

*See Bio of a Space Tyrant By Peirce Anthony

Chris Rock’s Advice

I was listening to Chris Rock’s  show and I realize that his views are the foundation on  which My beliefs about marriage are built.

Key Points:
1. You are Doomed to be Married and Miserable Or Single and Lonely
2. Marriage is about making your Wife Happy…. U will fail in your attempts to do so

It is interesting and maybe sad, but I believe these things whole heartedly. Now I am not saying it is Bad… and I not saying I will never do so…. but I think if do, I’d go into it with an expectation of this……… (self Fulfilling prophecy?)

Can you hear me?

Recently I saw two ppl fall out of love because the ways they communicated was incompatible …. fascinating. Where as one needed to hear things ever so often and often said sweet nothings themself… the other partner was more action oriented and much less Verbal. It turned out that both were shouting at the top of their lungs yet neither could fully hear the other………….

Man an Woman story: segue

In the pass 24 hours an considerable number of my female friends have complained to me about male ‘acquaintances’ that seem to prefer to avoid problems than confront them…. Again… almost like a hypocrite I agree with them……. I do agree with them for the most part…..but…. i understand to the fullest extent why the guys would prefer to walk away……… having a female upset with you ….. albeit inevitable…..sucks ass……. added to that i believe that 2 upset ppl will always have a hard time resolving an issue.

Having said I find the timing of these ‘talks’ interesting as i myself am dealing with such an issue where i would very much prefer to run away……..

Man and Woman Story: Learning

Every so Often a female friend speaks to me about something wrong that a male acquaintance has done to her….. and once in a while she may speak of something that I have done or Could see myself doing easily……… In such instances I smile and Nod and try let her see where the offending male might be seeing things incorrectly……..

But the more this happens the more at times I feel to throw my hands up in frustration….. how on earth are you suppose to avoid all the speed traps…… how can you keep all these things in mind……………………………….?
I know, of course that this is all a result of the side of me that prefers the “path of least resistance” talking…………………………….
The thing is I have found that people have the remarkable ability to forgive and to give second chances……. It is for us take advantage of them and to learn from our mistakes………………………

A recurring problem I find though the difference in point of view………………….. Many Times some of the things I have done wrong I do not really see why they are such a profound Issue until I finally hear a female friend confide in me the problems she’s having………………… Only then does the light dawn on me……. Sometimes……. Other times I just have to mark it as a difference and just work with it.

In any case…. I know many things are easier said than done, and you never really know what you’ll do until you’re in a givin situation…. But I hope I’ll learn… from those around me… and from my own experiences….. thats what life is about right?