Be

Never apologize for who you are….
Yet be aware that you have flaws

Stick with people who appreciate you
Avoid people who don’t

Do you best, give your all, regret nothing
Yet learn from your mistakes

Live your life in the manner you see fit
Yet be aware that u are a pebble in a pond

To Be or Not to be

I am seriously thinking about wether or not I should be on the Exec this year.. This year I am coming off a very poor performance on my part in terms  of how I did:-

- Poor management of playouts
- Scant attention to the welfare of my section
- No Summer Lyme

Just to name a few.. .

Nothing has really changed much in my life (ok, maybe 1 or 2 things),
but nothing really to indicate that I will be able to find more time or focus better.. so it begs the question why should I…

In my time at JPS i have learned and tried to adopt a policy of “No Excuses”…. It stems from the realization that ppl only care for results.. they don’t want excuses and they don’t much care how hard it was to get whatever you did done… They want, at the end of the day, to see that which was asked for….. It may seem cold.. but thats just how the world works.. there will always be a someone who can make more sacrifices to do more than you with less resources and ppl know this….

Having said that… if I am to truly adopt such an attitude to all aspects of my life then I should join the exec……..
If only it was that simple… I still feel there is no Guarantees that I wont make similar mistakes to the ones made last year bearing this in mind don’t I owe it to the band to step back get myself together first?

Beware

When a man has purposed in his heart that no one shall take priority over the activities he loves
When a man has decided to stay as emotionally independent as possible
When a man has no real desire to take that ultimate step…. even if the reason is simply beacause it is easier not to

Be ever vigilant for such men as they live for the now with little regard for the future and as such their destiny is undecided.

Beware for such a man is selfish beyond compare.

Don’t Preach to me… I am filled with selfrighteousness

So I had a loooooong discussion with CB and SimD about the state of the band I play in, Panoridim.

Towards the end of the discussion I got very defensive and essentially told them that they need to put up or shut (i know I can be such a self righteous prick @ times…..) afterwards heading back to work with CB i realized the error of my ways…. my still being active does not make their input of less active members any less important… in fact it puts them in a position to best see the band, ie outside of the box….
Added to that, whatever happened to ‘once a member always a member’…. it is almost as if i am competing with them to see who loves the band more…. <sigh>

I must say i apologize for my statements…

Having said that it hurts to see people preach to me on how ‘bad’ the band is without offering a solution…..

So where does that Leave us…. I guess a need for us to be sensitive to each others perspective…. I think the best example is my talk with Trinibase yesterday… In it I was cussing him How it is he never made to a meeting on Sunday…… yet in the cussing he made me realize something I had TOTALLY overlooked with regards to band all this time up until now. Even though he could not make his contribution, at least to me, is invaluable.

In the end we all need to realize that we all cuss and argue and have headaches over the band because we want the best for it.

Life’s pin pricks

I was givin a couple pin pricks over the last 48 hrs:

1. I am apparently a very arrogant SOB
2. Keep myself to myself especially when said self is not welcome.
3. careful not to misread signals that aren’t there
4. Appeasing your own conscience by screwing over someone else is rather a shitty and F’d up way to deal with friends.

In all this I feel a need to retreat into a shell.. yet I remind myself that life is about finding that elusive balance:

1. Talk less listen more…..
2. Be wary of the company you seek, it is better to be sought than to intrude
3. Err on the side of caution… be clueless if necessary… but if your pride is easily deflated guard it well.
4. Be sensitive to those who are close to you…..

Avoiding Blue Balls

Tips every guy should know:

• Turn off phone.
• Have your own way home…… being a scrub leaves you at the mercy of your ride
• Warn close friends that you will kill them….. slowly…… if they choose to interrupt an intimate meeting
• Do not begin flirting heavily when there is no opportunity to Consummate any deals made (unless one has plans to make a booty call or ‘handle’ one’s business ones self)
• Avoid women whose preferred topic is sex yet have no plans of carrying out any of the discussed activities with you.
• Do NOT do anything to piss you partner off when sharing an intimate moment.

These a but few tips every guy needs to know to avoid this most painful of experiences.

New Pan Year resolution

To, as much as possible,  Do what needs to be done when I see that it needs doing.