Leading sucks!

There is a side of leadership i dislike… the critics.. no matter what u do someone will find fault… and if despite all your efforts a mistake is made… the criticisms are swift and harsh… i guess thats important to keep a leader on his/her toes… but JEEZE it can get to you sometimes…

There are times I listen to ppl cussing me and even though they are friends I fight the urge to just tell them F*** You.

(Sigh) but then I try not to and i try to listen because they are sometimes right and i can prob. learn from what they have to to say… but JEEZE man it SUCKS!

At the end.

At the end

I am Overjoyed, and relieved
I am exited and rejuvenated
and yet

I feel a cold sense of not being ready yet
I should have known better and done better

so now

I ask myself
Do  i try again and strive to do better?
Or do I accept reality and come back when, if ever, I am ready….

Sh*t!

I find myself in a very sticky situation in the band, and I can clearly see all the wrong moves made to get to this point……. sigh.

I think its time I did the right thing……………

hmmm

A vote of no confidence can hurt sometimes….. It is easier not to… but I find that is what i want…
It sucks to feel bummy.

Lessons Boy!

So in the space of 24 hours I have been taught some tough lessons by some of my closest friends…. I must say I really appreciate their patience.

Lesson 1: show those you love that you do, even if it means making sacrifices

Lesson 2: Cover ones ass less it be made sore

Profound stuff, thanx Guys…..

Loosing Game

Amy Winehouse has a song titled “Love Is a Losing game” for some reason I find that song strikes a chord with me…
It does not make me bitter or resentful, however, rather it makes me feel hopeful.

Its a reminder the true love isn’t always about the perfect euphoric feeling one has at the start of a relationship.
Its a reminder that even though things get tough… and when the “i’m 16 and in love again” feeling has long since cooled… there is more to a relationship/love than these fleeting emotions….

It also a reminder that Love really are for those of us who are suckers for punishment… but know beyond a shadow of a doubt that it is worth it.
Maybe i am morbid and maybe my views are wrong but I believe love is a losing game… that I will continue to play.

For you I was the flame,
Love is a losing game
Five story fire as you came,
Love is losing game

One I wish I never played,
Oh, what a mess we made
And now the final frame,
Love is a losing game

Played out by the band,
Love is a losing hand
MOre than I could stand,
Love is a losing hand

Self professed and profound
Tilter tips were down
Know you’re a gambling man
Love is a loosing hand

Tho’ I battled blind,
Love is a fate resigned
Memories mar my mind,
Love is a fate resigned

Over futile odds,
And laughed by the Gods
And now the final frame,
Love is a losing game

Expletive

I know I have been doing a few of these posts lately and I kind apologize to those (my SO really) who are affended by indecent language…

F*CK!

wooohooosssaaaaahhhh
Feeling better now… was feeling a tad overwhelmed for a sec there.

AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feeling a tad bit pressured……….