A reminder

Today I was reminded that one should be assertive in acquiring what one wants.  However, If one is unsure of ones desire, be it because you don’t know if you want that which you seek or you are unwilling to pay the price, then one runs the risk of not being sufficiently assertive, in which case, will lead one to loose that which one wished to attain.

Smile and Nod

The other day A group of us went to Dunns river falls. While there one of the members of the group had an allergic reaction to the water.
On the way back Le and Rae were commenting on how it was rare to find someone allergic to salt water… at this point I recalled a documentary that I had seen on National Geographic where I learned that Sea water is really a chemical Concoction of a ridiculous amount of chemicals…. and really is allot more than just mere salt water…
Feeling incredibly smart and knowledgeable I Opened my mouth to explain to both Le and Rae that he was prob allergic to chemical composition of the water at that beach.. which would explain why at other beaches he had no noticeable reaction… This wonderful display of brilliant observation and deduction, not to mention extensive knowledge, was greeted with smiles and nods and a change in Topic……
2 days later it finally occured to me why this  incredibale insight that I had shown did not seem to enlighten them

1. Rae is a marine Biologist and 2. Le is a chemist.

The know way more about the topic than I (who only watched NG, and hadn’t happened to stay at Holiday in the night before) would ever likely know… sigh.. so they did the nice and polite thing… smile and nod.

It reminded me of situations where I have had the roles reversed and I realized I too do just that, Smile and Nod…, no sense in stealing the speakers moment.

The Great imperative

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Tired

I am TIRED…
of fall asleep over a piece of code
Of feel the pressure of a deadline I have already missed more than once
Of users calling me with their urgent problems that need my immediate attention
of those who think that that anything they want me to make the computer do is only 2 mouse clicks away
Of a little project called COMMS
Of a  little application name Microsoft Access

I am just F***ing tired

<sigh> now that felt good … back to work

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I step into my office 2 hours late still feel I need to sleep having left work @ 3:45 in the morning. The first order of business is my (now daily) dose of redbull…. ahhh refreshing almost ready to start… but somthing is missing… ah yes my sound track…

we been waiting we been waiting
For this round to come
we been waiting we been waiting
For we to take a last jump!

Now! i can begin to work redbul & Soca all you need to have a great day at work (even if you haun’t had enough sleep)

Proud To Suck?

Yesterday I was told in no uncertain terms that I suck… actually the actual words used were “You Suck Ass”.

Now normally when people criticize me in such pure honesty I often cringe and do some serious Soul searching.

Two perfect examples where when SM called me a hypocrite and when BC called me an idiot…. I found both criticisms, though harsh, spoke to situations that I really need to wake up to. In the end both instances forced me to look at myself and make adjustments accordingly.

Last night however was different… in each example given for why i “sucked” I realized i would make no apology.. Given a chance to do it all again I would. A sticking point was my refusal to seek medical attention… On a matter like that I believe in only seeing a doctor when I need to. Another point was my views on marriage… now, where as my views on the topic have softened greatly I do not believe they are wrong.

So where does that leave me? To be honest I felt proud… go figure.. In the face of (I must admit) Logical criticisms of my actions and beliefs I found myself without regrets or any need to second guess myself.

Penis Taboo

While having an intresting Lyme with a female friend of mine the topic of Penis sizes came up…. It turned out to be a very intresting and enlightening discussion, that I felt was blog worthy.

Unfortunately I realized that such a move may not be wize…for a jamaican male, to be discussing penis size is not acceptable… even if I am repeating the views of a female companion and adding my opinion to it.

Such amove would leave 2 impressions in most ppls minds

1> I am gay…. why else would I be comparing or even be thinking about other mens genatelia
and/Or
2> I am insecure about my own size

Seeing that neither is true I have decided not to post about the conversation.

Intellectually challenged

There are times I find myself interacting with those I feel are intellectually intimidating and I realize I often try to compensate… such a petty reaction born of basic human emotion.

More ramblings from an Idle Mind

• Emotions can strongly influence one’s interaction with people. I find that one should be cognizant these are fundamentally chemicals reactions in your brain, and as such, are not lasting. Having said that it becomes even more evident that one should, as much as possible, be care-full of not acting on purely emotion as your judgment/ decision making has is not at it’s peak.

• There are times in one’s daily activities that one must block everything and everyone so as to focus on a task at hand… Be sensitive to those who must be shut out.

• Even those who are close to you, understand you and accept you for who you are… there are times you owe it to them shield them from yourself.

Be it that you Know

Be cognizant of who you are and what you are about
Be aware that you are only human

Know your desires
Know their Cost

Be prepared to pay
Be ready to  enjoy

Know such is life
Know that life is short